Life and the cards it have give me

I’m not that kind of person to feel sorry for myself. In a way you may ask the card the life has giving me from day one. And manny over bad/ugly cards life has give me life have give me I have the right to feel bad. But I deal with it and get it out of the way. Or worked really hard my whole life to be num to make it look like I don’t have ADHD.

But the cards that life has give me this time I can’t fix or and failed to be able to fix/or get over. When it come it getting over things I’m good at getting over. Tho I may take longer. This time i cant do a thing. Tho it really comes down to someone being an ass hole and blow this whole thing up to.

It really has upset me. And I have Tryed to get over it. (The mine thing I have). But when the ass hole will not let you see your sister and her baby. And you miss them a lot (the baby the most). It have got to me super bad. To were I feel like crap all day. I don’t feel like doing anything that I love do. I just can’t put in to word on how I feel. Just kills me inside.

I’m not one for a lot of word. Because of my ADHD. Gets in the way and I go off somewhere else or I for get what I’d really like to say. And by the time I really what to say something I’m super
sleepy.

I just need to ran away

Yes!! i just need to ran away and get out of my mind.. not be me any more. or being this mess. I miss my sister and I so miss the baby. I just don’t feel me any more and I feel like I cant deal any longer. when its to shit like this no bigg but the fact that I love that kid more then anything. the fact that this guy that she is with can man up and deal with the fact… we said sorry what the hell else is it going to take.. getting a lawyer so we can see the baby bc that’s all we what is to see the baby..

if your reading this and have no clue whats going on sorry.but you can get the just of it all. this is one fucked up thing that has come to light and I don’t understand why god is letting this happen. I pray and I good. why cant he just give me this one. he knows im at the end of my mind and I cant deal with the feelings any more. all I do any more is cry. and im not one to cry. I deal with the shit. and get over it. but when I may just be ok with it she calls or text or something and it just all over and then some..