It’s nuts how Pinterest makes you what to keep you life in line. For me it make me what to make things look good or give me something fun to make.
Why is it when I’m getting sleepy my mind is the most active and my adhd is in full force by 10 I get the best idea and they come so fast that I can’t keep up. And go as fast most of the time. I get so excited with all the things. I just can’t deal. I
Don’t talk a lot bc A I don’t really have anything to say. B if I do have something to say no one what’s to hear it. ( not say that to say it. it’s just I have feelings and I/ like to have someone full forces on me when I’m talking. Hope that didn’t seem to self-centered. Bc it’s not. Do unto others as you what to be treated) Then the other times I overthink things. And things dumb thing from the past I did or say.
I forgot the last bit I was going to say
I blog because I just do. When it comes to writing I am really bad. And I’m all over the place. My mind works so fast that I run sentences. Or in the mind of saying one thing I go someplace else then trying to put the two together. My adhd/ add is that bad. Yes I’m on Meds and thay help. But my mind goes so fast it’s hard to put anything thing down.
So I just to say a big think you to anyone that follows or likes my post and things I post. It means a lot.
This year is going to be bout me! Yes that may seem self-centered but if you can put to and to together this year has not been the best. For me. I do remember all what I have posted. I’ll post it this year we (my mom and I) yes I’m 25 and still at home. Mental issues are the reason why I’m still here long story about that.had a fulling out with my one sister who had a bady. Due to the baby’s dad. We haven’t got to see him since April. But a week before my dad went to the hospital on Black Friday to 2014. He had a blood clot. And was in and out of the hospital and rehab. Then to a nursing home so the hole bady dad thing came out at the worst time.
Yes life happens and shit like that happens. What messed me up was the baby thing. It not even far that they ( mainly my sister) is keeping us from him. ( not trying to Point fingers or say I’m batter or what not but that’s not the point) she isn’t even sticking up for us or for the baby. I understand that this situation with my sister and the baby dad there are a lot of issues like that. But what it comes down to is. We had him all most every day. That thing I’m bitching bc in not. With my sister going to school and working and him will that’s a hole other thing.
But! I’m am so happy that I got to spend his 1st year with him. I love that baby. A lot. And it was killing me not to act up and call I’m out on what he was doing to the baby. And is painfull tho I know it needed to be done it just killing me inside and fucked me up. But I do see the sun. The it’s not yellow(idk what could) and I need to stop being sad and getting me upset. So I’m going to say what’s on my mind. And do or say thing that I fe the need
The up side is I’m working out and. It’s helping get me back to me.
Lets go Ohio
Ok ok the title is generic but it going to be. We all have years that are fabulous days that are fabulous weeks that are fabulous month. Others are just num. 2013 I thought that was an ugly year with a close friend passing away to a few weeks/month me getting in a car accident. ( if you know the story with the friend then you know that story). The only up side to that whole year was the birth of my nephew. The only up side to that whole year was the birth of my nephew. That will be the down fall of 2014
If there is one thing to know about me is one idk what you what to call it but I’m calling it a pet peeve. I don’t like the number 3,6,or9. But they are just bad or ugly numbers. Will 2013 was an ok year.
Then comes 2014. Come April ( more like good/not so good Friday) IM NOT GOING TO GET IN TO IT ALL BC FOR THE ONES THAT KNEW EACH STORY YOU KNOW YOU. AND I THINK YOU ALL FOR ALLOWING ME TO JUST TALK. IT HAS HELP ME GET THROUGH IT ALL.
I don’t know why God does things or throws a lot of unfortunate (if you what to cal it that) things to happen back to back or unfold life they did. Granted when it come to most things with me it’s hard for me to process/ deal with thing / things change in my life that I have no Control over. Due to my add/ADHD. I just can’t handle it. I work hard to not that get in my way. I can go on and on about me having to do things in my kind of way but I’m not.
With this new year. I need to get back in reality. And find a new way to go in life. I have put up wall the past few months and I just got to get back.
One of the biggest things I will be doing this year is losing weight. Though I don’t look like it but I am overweight. Not a lot but I’d have to say 10-20 pounds overweight then I need to. And with my scoliosis. But body is not num. my goal for this year is to be at 140 tho it’s still maybe 10-20 pounds over then someone my sizes needs to be.
The program I’m useing is beachbody. And the programs they have. I know it work. I know two people that have been useing it lots a few and they both look super good. So if they can do it with being parents and having jobs then I can lose the weight two and I don’t have kids. It’s going to be a good year.
Life is unkind sometimes. And I know God doesn’t throw creep at you that he thanks you can not handle. And I know/ knew this. But I have to (have been ) moving on. And I believe the hard part is over. And I need to focus on me and just keep praying. I know working out will help with a lot of it.
I’m hope you all have a good year. It’s hard to believe that it’s 2015! It sometimes still feels like the 90s. It’s mind blowing that it’s been over 15/16 years. Be a batter you.