A year for me.

This year is going to be bout me! Yes that may seem self-centered but if you can put to and to together this year has not been the best. For me. I do remember all what I have posted. I’ll post it this year we (my mom and I) yes I’m 25 and still at home. Mental issues are the reason why I’m still here long story about that.had a fulling out with my one sister who had a bady. Due to the baby’s dad. We haven’t got to see him since April. But a week before my dad went to the hospital on Black Friday to 2014. He had a blood clot. And was in and out of the hospital and rehab. Then to a nursing home so the hole bady dad thing came out at the worst time.

Yes life happens and shit like that happens. What messed me up was the baby thing. It not even far that they ( mainly my sister) is keeping us from him. ( not trying to Point fingers or say I’m batter or what not but that’s not the point) she isn’t even sticking up for us or for the baby. I understand that this situation with my sister and the baby dad there are a lot of issues like that. But what it comes down to is. We had him all most every day. That thing I’m bitching bc in not. With my sister going to school and working and him will that’s a hole other thing.

But! I’m am so happy that I got to spend his 1st year with him. I love that baby. A lot. And it was killing me not to act up and call I’m out on what he was doing to the baby. And is painfull tho I know it needed to be done it just killing me inside and fucked me up. But I do see the sun. The it’s not yellow(idk what could) and I need to stop being sad and getting me upset. So I’m going to say what’s on my mind. And do or say thing that I fe the need
The up side is I’m working out and. It’s helping get me back to me.

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Just found out

Ok yes it 3 am and I’m just in my basement walking because will A)its 3am and B) it’s Ohio and the weather is will just Ohio. If you could give us a mental disorder then Ohio is bipolar

** disclosure mental disorders are not a joke. I for one have adhd/add so I know what it’s like****

But tonight I have had writing juices flowing. And I like it. I like the fact I get a two for one. Out of this who thing. I am not one for a lo of words. Because my mind is running all over the place or I just don’t feel like getting out of bed. Or I just don’t know what to say!

Ssi I got it. Now for the games that like to play

UG! so I have not got my money yet for Ssi they called last Friday and said that I will get the money in 3 day. Will if you don’t add in the weekend. Weds or the next day.

The guy called today saying that the paper work didn’t go in right. So he had to fix some things. And now he gave us a new number. Like stop playing us. We win. Now give me my money. And stop playing games

My Mind!

My mind is coming up with things to share every min ! It upsets me bc of my ADD/ADHD. I have issues spilling! I have a Learning Disorder Thanks to my iPhone and iPod! I have the Merriam-Webster Dictionary and bing App. I can say the word I’m looking in the mic in most of the time it’s the right word I’m looking for!

But most of the time when I don’t have them or can’t get to or out of data! I try the best if I can’t get it I ask ! But i don’t ask many bc I look dum and I’m not! Other then that is the ADD that kicks in and I forget ! And when I have things to say I’m going to bed ! And by that time will you know lol.

There are a lot of things I don’t tell people in my life.I just don’t what them looking down on me! I try so hard to make to look like I don’t have Attention Deficit Disorder, Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder/Learning Disorder. It’s a lot of work!

I will post a new blog on Attention Deficit Disorder, Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder/Learning Disorder. The who what and what not