A year for me.

This year is going to be bout me! Yes that may seem self-centered but if you can put to and to together this year has not been the best. For me. I do remember all what I have posted. I’ll post it this year we (my mom and I) yes I’m 25 and still at home. Mental issues are the reason why I’m still here long story about that.had a fulling out with my one sister who had a bady. Due to the baby’s dad. We haven’t got to see him since April. But a week before my dad went to the hospital on Black Friday to 2014. He had a blood clot. And was in and out of the hospital and rehab. Then to a nursing home so the hole bady dad thing came out at the worst time.

Yes life happens and shit like that happens. What messed me up was the baby thing. It not even far that they ( mainly my sister) is keeping us from him. ( not trying to Point fingers or say I’m batter or what not but that’s not the point) she isn’t even sticking up for us or for the baby. I understand that this situation with my sister and the baby dad there are a lot of issues like that. But what it comes down to is. We had him all most every day. That thing I’m bitching bc in not. With my sister going to school and working and him will that’s a hole other thing.

But! I’m am so happy that I got to spend his 1st year with him. I love that baby. A lot. And it was killing me not to act up and call I’m out on what he was doing to the baby. And is painfull tho I know it needed to be done it just killing me inside and fucked me up. But I do see the sun. The it’s not yellow(idk what could) and I need to stop being sad and getting me upset. So I’m going to say what’s on my mind. And do or say thing that I fe the need
The up side is I’m working out and. It’s helping get me back to me.

A 4am phone call

4/31/2014
So I’m just now getting ready to go to bed. And as I was getting something small to eat. My moms phone rings. When your phone rings at 4am it’s not a real good thing. It was my dad.

He didn’t know what time it is.he asked if my mom was bz. And will if my bz you mean it’s 4am and she was sleeping (she really wasn’t) ( she wasn’t able to sleep any how)